Friday, October 22, 2010

Ms.Independent or Ms.Stupid

Ok everyone knows i am the definition of Ms.Independent; not patting myself on the shoulder but for real I GOT MY OWN!..I was even born to be Independent!..July 4th babii =].I absolutely dont need a man for JACK SQUAT!(wanted to say another word but this blog is PG). Never have and never will!..ok enough with me sounding like the extreme feminist. Ask any man out there to describe their ideal partner and "a woman that is independent" is a top priority. However, come to think of it being an independent female comes with its perks but also some disadvantages.Time to pull out the list.(there can be more or less added to this list)
1. GOOD: You dont need to depend on anyone for anything. You make your own decisions. You set your own rules. You handle your business. What's not to love about that?!?!?
2.BAD: You tend to use your independence as an excuse as to why you tolerate certain things from a guy. I for sure can attest to this one. We feel like just because we dont need nothing from them it's ok for them to DO nothing for you.::le sigh:: This one is probably my biggest downfall.
3. BAD: Your stubborn!..oh gosh!...definitely me with this one. You believe that since your handling situation that you don't need advice or help from anyone around you. You tend to make decisions(which aren't always wise ones) on your own. Not to bash anyone that makes their own decision but they say two heads are better than one. Sometime we are so caught up in being independent and being the big "guy" that we tend to let this mask our perception of the world around us. We only see things from our point of view and we get EXTREMELY upset when people don't see eye to eye or agree with us.
4. GOOD: All in all we take care of business. We get what we're suppose to get done.
5.GOOD: An independent female is very Confident. Some are so confident that they may come off as being narcissistic and egotistical. OK OK maybe this one can be a bad trait also..lolz..but come on if you don't believe in your own self worth then how can you expect someone else to think your worthy??..duh logic!..lolz..
6. BAD: We do a lot of work and have very little fun. Life is all about what you put in it. You cant expect to just work all days of your life and then expect to have a happy life in the end. Yes you might be successful but i know for a fact that you wont be happy. You will always feel like you missed out on something; and that's because you did. You missed out on enjoying your youth, nurturing your body, and growing alongside your friends and family.

This list can go on forever in my opinion but i'll leave it at this for now

All in all being independent is the truth!. Ain't nothing wrong with being dependent on yourself. Ain't nothing wrong with having PRIDE and JOY in what you have accomplished. However, don't use your independence as a reason for making STUPID decisions when it comes to your relationships with others. You have to learn how to balance being Independent and also being a human being. Don't make your ego be a rationale as to why we accept certain things in life. We have standards, but some of these standards need to include that we need others in our life, we need them for their support, love, and advice. Don't shut the world out just because "you think you got this",instead use everyone's opinions as a baseboard for your success.

Nothing is wrong with having expectations from other people. Whether they meet your expectations is what should really matter.

"Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses"Madame Marie du Deffand

besos =]<3>

My new love of music: DUBSTEP

So many of you may not know exactly what dubstep is so let me break it down for yall(lolz...mad country rite!)...listen to this!

yes you hear all that bass and how everything sounds like distorted and heavy!..well that is exactly what dubstep is.According to wikipedia(sorry really bad source but its actually accurate) dubstep is"a genre of electronic dance music.Its overall sound has been described as "tightly coiled productions with overwhelming bass lines and reverberant drum patterns, clipped samples, and occasional vocals" Dubstep originated in the UK but didnt become popular until the late 2006. The sound can also be described as computerized effects on the tone and underlying beats of a tune. Personally, i didnt become fond of this new genre until about late this past spring. The first place i heard it was at school in WCCR!...DJ El Blanco Nino was the first person to play it there and as soon as he played it my head couldn't stop bumping(you know what that is.its when you jerk your head back to front aggressively as if ur having a brain attack..lolz). It was so captivating and FRESH!..ever since then everytime i would hear a Dubstep track my head is constantly jerking!...I am no shape or form an expert at this genre but thanks to youtube and some other DJs from WCCR i was able to become a little bit more in tune with this type of music.. For example this one!...this is probably one of my favorite Dubstep![Thanks to Jynny :)]

yea u guys feel it rite! im writing this blog and listening to this song my heading is going CRAZII!!!...ok soo u mite not be able to fully hear the effects that i was talking about in that specific song but listen up to this one!.

did u hear the drop!?!?!...yes thats another thing about dubstep the drops are ridiculous!...once it drops you go craziiii!...well i kno i do!...i jus love the feeling of this type of music. It is different yet sooo refreshing!!...if i go to a club or party and i hear dubstep i go INSANE!(yea like those white girls you be seeing in the club..u think they offbeat and all but nah i kno the feeling!) jus makes you move. If you dont move when you hear this type of music then you truly dont APPRECIATE the ART of music itself! have to remember there are alot of components to music; not just lyrics, rhythm, or beat! my knowledge of this genre expands the greater my love and appreciation spans also!.
Here's a few more of my fav.

This next one is one of the first dubstep songs i heard...can you feel why im soo into it?!?!?!?!?
S.N Dont mind the "tree" u see in this video!...i am in no way shape or form promoting anything!

well i hope you guys enjoyed my new love!...i know i do =]

QOTB:“Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.” unknown

besos <3>

"My love has 2 different faces"

So as everyone might or might not have known, I'm an emotional mess!..lolz..sad to say but its true. i tend to let my emotions take over my life....yep im a cancer!...wait for it...wait for it..however, do not!...i repeat!...DO NOT TAKE ME FOR A WEAK PERSON!..ok so before i explain the title of this blog..listen to this song...

ok so before you go jumping to conclusions NO I WAS NOT HAVING RELATIONS WITH TWO PERSONS AT THE SAME TIME! I am just torn between two. Never in my life would i imagine that i would be in this position where "my love has 2 different faces" i not too young to be in this predicament?!?..apparently not -_-..but evidently i wasn't fully over one before i started the next(huh i hope you understood dat)..and over the past couple of days a lot has happen to make me rethink my whole relationship status..i use to hear the saying"you have to close one door before you open another" but i never truly understood what it meant.Now i've come to an concrete understanding of the saying and it basically means what it says. As for me, I didn't close one door and now its still open. I'm not saying i regret it being open, just have come to accept it now. I still care about this specific person and no matter what i don't think there is anything on this earth that can change that. Who knows what the future might have in store for us. And to make things even better we have grown to have a deep understanding and connection with each other, which just makes it a little bit more easier to accept now. As for relationships, i have decided to stay single for ME, not for or because of anyone else. ME!..yes ME! whole life i have been focus on the happiness and well being of others and not once have i thought about my happiness. Well the time has come for me to finally put myself first!.Nothing is wrong with being selfish at times. I need to figure out certain things in my life before i can truly be committed to a person. Yes i'm a well rounded individual who has a lot of achievements and goals in life, but somehow i tend to use this as an excuse to overshadow my expectations in a relationship. Plus in the past i have settled for relationships that i know that wasn't the epitome of an ideal relationship. Like my bestie says i cant be independent and stupid, and i ain't even going to lie; that's exactly what i was doing!.Ok soo enough with the mushy stuff...i just needed to get that out...whew!..i been waiting all week to do dat!..lolz..anyways i am excited for this new journey i am embarking on!!..i have soo much to learn from it =]
besos <3

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us"R.W. Emerson

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

First Blog

So i've been comtemplating for a while if i should actually get a blog page...hmm i think i finally gave in..I have soo much going on in my brain[i have to get it out!]..I have never really been the writing type but i think i can get use to this...dishing out my feelings over this keyboard shouldn't be too hard now should it?...we'll see...anywho i kno this will be an experience i will enjoy i can already feel it!!!..of course with this being my first blog just introducing myself it will be short!.ha!..i hope whoeva comes here enjoy my posts =]

o yea imma need all the help i can possible get on here....lolz..

keenababii =]